Normally,
I'd love to hear

But not today
No, sorry, no

You expect me to be okay with this
You told me how
You loved me
More than the other girls

And I just wanted to go
Somewhere else
Not in particular
Only away

I was tempted
Think of the status!
The smirks I could hand out
Like halloween candy
(bitter, isn't it?)

And the time I could spend
Just wasting away with you
Volatile and triumphant

And then I was at the edge of a pool
So calm and decided and right

Then the thought snuck in
That maybe you need me,
maybe forever, maybe just one night

And I was disgusted
With me for considering
(You're like a child, after all)
With you for discovering me
But only post-four-month-wait

I really don't mean
Half the things that I say
Don't be intrigued by
My careless lies
You don't deserve me
I don't want you

So let's just call it a day