Once it hits me it is going to hit hard
How could you do this to me again?
You know how fragile I am
You were the one who offered to put my broken pieces back into place

And it was working
Did you get bored?
Is that why you smashed me down again to break into even more pieces

Do you like to see how much you can break me down because you know that I let the faintest glimmer of hope manifest into forgiveness and love?
Am I your loyal puppy that always comes begging back?
Am I waiting by the door for you to notice me and take me on an adventure
Lead in mouth
And butterflies in my stomach
Always waiting
For whenever you're ready
For when you need me
For when you want me
For long enough to help you move on and do better

Am I your guinea pig?
Your test dummy?
Your practice doll?
Sometimes you were there when I needed you which makes this all so much worse

Because I'm dependant on you, you see
While you're looking at her and I'm cursing my reflection
Does she know you like I do?
Do I even know you that well, or was it all an act? I'm supposed to be the actress, but your performance is oscar worthy.