You and I need to face how broken our relationship is.
All we've done is lie to
Each other
Everyone else
Ourselves
And that will be the death of us
In the end
I don't want to grow up and live
With the lies we planted
As teenagers.
It is not that I do not wish
To grow old with you, my love.
That will be something I want to have; you, I mean.
The lies have drained me, girlie.
You were right
All of those months ago.
All we do is lie to one another.
And I will do my part for that to change
When they let us reunite.
And hopefully you will too.

These lies have drained me, girlie.
That is one thing that I know.
I keep on wondering if
Ashley was real because she
Was a lie once, so why not again?
I just want the truth
And I want to understand
But
"There is nothing for you to understand."
At least that is what your mom told me.
These lies have drained me, girlie.

I'm distracting myself
From what I am trying to say.

Of course I love you.
I will always love you.
But it's been so long
And my heart is just a little too broken.
So when you come back,
I will be starting over.
Because I was in love with you.
I was, for a long time.
And that was never a lie, my love.
I want to be in love with you again.
I really do.
And I will let you fix my heart
With what ever you have in your
Arsenal.
I'm just too tired to fix it myself
And I keep looking for girls to do the fixing
For you.
But no one has and I see no one will.
I haven't let you go, my angel.

I've just decided that

I can't say I'm in love with you

Anymore until we

Fix our immensely, chaotically,
Horribly, undeniably

Broken relationship.