''I hope you make time for me.''...doesn't mean I want you to spend all of your time with me.I married you because I want to spend most of my time with you.
If I knew that you're happy enough spending most of the week with other people then we didn't need to get married.
We should've just remained friends seeing each other once in a while. Partying, drinking, talking about work, ranting and raving about life in general. The usual stuff friends do.
No expectations from each other... No commitments...No disappointments...No senseless arguments...No emotional stress. The many advantages of just being friends.
But we got married. We decided that we want to spend a lifetime together. We yearned for a family that we can both nurture.
We wanted to be responsible for each other. To take care of each other. To know what's important for the other and willingly provide that. I married you and I want all of these for you.
Im not married to my work, nor my friends, nor my son. Im married to you. So for me you matter most....for me most of my time should be with you.
To share with you first time moments, to have quality moment with you and talk about anything and everything under the sun, to laugh and cry with you...as much as possible.
Life is short. So short that when my mom passed away, I realized that 21 years with her was too short a time to be with someone you love. And I don't want to go through that ever again.
If today was my last day on Earth, I would be sad for I know that we missed out on a lot of things together. I don't want to leave knowing that we could have had more time alone, together. Please don't leave me in this predicament as well if you were to go today.
That's where Im coming from when I say, ''I hope you make time for me.'' To you it may come as yet another issue of mine. But, for me, it means a whole lot.
- November 15, 2010