My eyes cant hold the beauty in this world
and my soul cannot hold its pain
my self leaks like watercolor falling out of my heart
blistering into acid rain

my awareness is dug in a pit of melancoly painted
with the light of so many of my dreams
at the bottom of every hole creasing me
smiles the infant woman within me

Im gradually sinking deeper into things I cannot stand to handle
I speak for every woman who has had herself torn apart
whom pain has become a way of living and a art
whom thoughts rage how will I overcome this
something
someone
tell me where to start
they tangled me once again
how in the **** are they so smart

thick black density in my eyes overlap crying laughter
I set my eyes to every human Im after
I must stay away from you
I must stay away from you

my memory will latch onto you like a warriors tatoo
there has been a breakthrough
no limits anymore
no
no
mental curfew

the stench of pain rotting away somewhere in some wasteland
extracted tons of weight, the burden mildew

I outgrew the thoughts of us
I shed like dead skin


and realize this is not the type of love I was born to rescue