I am the kind of person To write love poems for someone I just met Thinking that maybe words can make up for my lack of confidence My quirkiness My overwhelming insecurities And that awkward laugh that often escapes my mouth without warning Phrases eager to leave my lips I compose sonnets without thinking Sew them on to jean pockets so that Everytime you get undressed You think of me I don't know if that's socially acceptable But I'm willing to take the risk See I am the person Who fears coming off as creepy Yet still hands out lines of poetry like candy on street corners I swear my purpose Is not To reel you in Capture you between spiderwebs spun from my fingertips My intentions are honest I am not looking for one night stand Meaningless Not on a constant hunt for momentary happiness I want something that will last longer than sweetness Longer than saccharin Hit harder than whiskey Won't leave a bitter aftertaste on my tongue I have drowned too many times in salty waters To know that I am more likely to sink than float I have not yet learned how to swim in the deep end I do not know how many attempts it will take to get to the center of me There is no sweet middle Waiting to be divulged I have blocked off the pathways to myself Not very often do I open them back up I have a sign tied around my body stating Warning Do not enter You might get stuck I have a heart that is filled with quicksand and duct tape The longer you stay around the harder it is For me to let go I am not trying to trap people But everytime they leave, A part stays with me I have a photo albums on the insides of my skin Sometimes the memories flowing through my veins pile up And it is too much All at once I am the kind of person Who runs towards sharp edges of opportunity with open arms And then complains about the bleeding I am the kind of person Who can't help but repeat Repeat Everything I feel Until I don't feel it anymore I have promised myself That I will stop falling at first sight I have hit my head relentlessly With severity Too many times But has never been enough for me to stop None of this Has ever been enough for me to stop I am the kind of person To write love letters And never send them Keeping them behind locked doors Keeping them For myself To remember every detail I am the kind of person That may never know How exactly To love I am still learning How to love Myself.