I told my father I was gay.
I wanted him to hate me.
I wanted him to show emotion.

I got his indifference .
I got him.
I was given the man who did not care.
I wanted him to hate me.
I wanted him to hit me.
I want him to say in plain words
Don't get that ****** disease.
Not just be careful.

I miss when I was young and you were my father.
I wish I knew when you lost that connection.
When you became afraid to show me,

When you couldn't say you loved me.

I wish I could tell you I love.

Wish that it would open you.

I know you hurt dad,

I hurt too.