I could apologise until my mouth bleeds but none of it would matter because you're already so far gone from me.
when you see my wrist, please don't ask why, because you already know that I'm dying inside.
and if I'm sad again, please don't ask. it's because I've ruined us and I'm killing myself under this mask.
I haven't eaten in days and I can't stop crying for you, I've been sad before but I don't think I've ever wanted to die so much because I'm losing you.
why can't you see that this disaster I've cause is slowly killing me?
I know it's all my fault, you don't have to remind me. I've always hated myself but it's gotten so much worse as of lately.
you keep telling me I'm not the same person anymore, you make it seem like I did it I'm purpose so I could watch you walk out the door.
then you ask why I tore my skin, if you must know it's an attempt to speak all the words and emotion I've been hiding within.
maybe you're right, I'm not the same girl amymore

You're right.

I've turned into a suicidal teenage *****