Trying to tell you this when I'm sober
I fumble down my words like stairs
As if I've never learned how to navigate gently

But that night
We stuck to the bar and to each other's thoughts and confessed the smallest details- the ones that usually make all the difference
And I saw you in a new light- one where I could finally understand your mind

You and I- we are more alike than we realize
The things that bother you are the same things that bother me
We just never said it out loud
Until that night

That night you kissed me again with a glorious fervor
It made my entire body shake and my heart sank onto your floor
And sifted to the foot of your bed
Wanting more
Wanting nothing at all
But your hands and your skin and your mind and your time all over me
And you gave me just that
And it was beautiful.

In the morning, you woke
Delirious yet loving still
And our smiles bespoke what we never will again
We were happy and thoughtless and yielding
See, this love could be so easy if we let it be

But I understand now where it is you go when I can't quite read you
Your mind turns inward
And your body language follows
When you think I have another
It is not so
When you think of another
I will understand
You have many things to think about
I just want to be one of them

A
Thought that makes you smile
A
Thought that makes you feel this is worthwhile