Here I am, drowning within
myself. Ripping my hair out
for weeks, it seems.
Torn between what is right
and what is good. Unsure what
those even mean. Yet here I am;
breaking bones under a cross
I'm not sure I wish to carry.
Breaking down to a place I'm not
sure I want to visit. Fighting a fight
I didn't mean to pick, and losing
a war I never meant to finish. Here I am
in the trenches. Here I am.
Knee deep in a love I never really knew, in a life
I never really wanted. Here I am. Treading water,
waiting for sharks to smell the blood.
Come! Here I am, I have nothing left to lose.
Come, take everything that remains.
I've been ripping my hair out for weeks,
here she comes to the door now, here she comes.
Sharks where are you? I am sinking,
hoping for an easy way out. Don't let me down.
The footsteps only get louder. Don't let me drown.
Here she comes. I am here and here she comes.
No one should have to feel this way about a woman.
The last breath chokes out of
collapsed lungs and
she smiles.