I PROBABLY SKIP FAR MORE MEALS THAN I SHOULD AND SPEND MORE TIME SLEEPING THAN MOST PEOPLE. I CRY TOO OFTEN AND TOO HARD AND FOR FAR TOO LONG. I FIND MYSELF WAKING UP COUNTLESS TIMES THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT OR NOT SLEEPING AT ALL. I BURY MYSELF IN BOOKS WITH STORIES OF TEENAGERS WHOSE LIVES I WOULD TRADE FOR MY OWN. I LET BOYS BREAK MY HEART AND I LET MYSELF BE BROKEN DOWN BY GIRLS WITH PRETTIER EYES AND HAIR AND FACES AND BODIES. I DONT WEIGH MYSELF IN FEAR THAT I MIGHT STOP EATING ALTOGETHER AGAIN AND I LAY ENOUGH MAKEUP ON MY FACE EACH MORNING TO BE COMPLIMENTED ON MY LOOKS. I AM A GIRL WHO WILL PROBABLY ALWAYS NEED REASSURANCE BUT WILL PROBABLY NEVER BE ABLE TO KEEP SOMEONE WHO IS WILLING TO GIVE IT. I AM FULL OF SELF LOATHING AND I ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO BE NOTHING LIKE ME. (r.r)