maybe it's not what i'm saying
but rather, what's not being said.
perhaps you are more defensive, because neither of us are willing
willing to break down
willing to bow and respect
maybe there was no sense of respect in the first place
perhaps
just perhaps
we were not meant to be here.
perhaps i am in the wrong place, at the wrong time
and you are having an allergic reaction
you are swelling and your breathing turns ragged
your eyes turn red and everything hurts.

maybe i should have listened to you.
i should have stayed away.
i went to you, and i thought i was being an adult.
i thought i was making the right choice, but
your actions are screaming otherwise.

i walk in the room and your whole body
reacts to me.
you lean away, you stiffen, you are offended
by my existence.


maybe i am an enigma and you can't stand me,
maybe i am nothing more than a blip on your screen.
maybe we are not meant to be here
and maybe i should just leave.

would you miss me if i left?