I have known pain In every form All too well My box of memories is filled to the rim with moments so vivid That if I close my eyes I can almost taste the blood between my teeth Pain has been Someone I have turned to When emotion has defeated feeling Sometimes just a pinch of the skin To remind myself That I am real That this Is real Pain is an alarm clock ringing Begging us to wake up In a world full of dreamers Who just cant seem to face reality Without pain Without the sandpaper glued to our palms Life would slip right through our fingers Pain is attached to every year of my life Marking the moments that mattered most From ages where seconds of happiness seem blurred And mostly pain is remembered Age 4 Chin shattering against the kitchen floor Skin and bone to hardwood When a game of horsey with my older brother Goes too far Stiches sewing me back into place I can still taste the melted twix bar that I was given For being such a good patient Age 7 Scrapes from falling off the bicycle Were enough to get me to stop trying Needless to say I never learned how Age 12 Words thrown at me like razor blades in the school cafeteria Hurt enough for me To use them against myself In fits of aching rage My body refuses to let me forget Age 15 Watching my father Sick from chemotherapy Hunched over in agony Hair falling to the ground like the ashes of cancer victims Watching him suffer Hurt more than any broken bone Than Any paper cut Scratch to the surface The worst kind of pain I've learned Is the kind that can not be erased from memory With a rub to the eyes Is the kind where You are forced to watch Loved ones Experience it Without being able to help Or do anything to ease their discomfort The worst kind of pain Is being witness Is being bystander Pain is more than a bully Pain is a backstabbing neighbor Who pulls a gun to your head just when you think you've got it right Is a ghost A physical form that fades But remains forever alive in memory In the faces of people you've hurt In the scars of skin that forces you to remember what happened What happened Does not define you But the thing about pain Is that whether or not you want it to It shapes you.