I have never been one
To be direct
To speak with clarity
But do not doubt me
My intentions are true
So I will write this
Will all riddle aside
Dear you
You who has
Been there for me
In every struggle
With a consoling arm around my shoulder
My life these past few years
Has been an obstacle course
I have jumped hurdles with shaky knees
Only to land face down
But every time I have fallen
You have helped me
To the finish line
I have never been one
To shoot for the stars
But you have made me feel
As if I'm an astronomer
I now see hope in every constellation
Every crescent moon
No feat is too difficult to overcome
I am overcome with thoughts
That I feel the need to let out
So that
I can breathe easier
I have known you for three years
I have spent two loving you
And just when I finally
Build up the courage
To tell you
It is too late
I am knocking myself down
Because for all of the times you've picked me back up
I never realized
How much I needed that
How much I wanted
So much more
You call me best friend
Which in itself
Is an honor
It is simply to know you
But I know
That I love you
And I'm aware that it's impossible for you to return that love
Funny because you make me feel
Like nothing is impossible
Like
Somehow being 5,000 miles away
Won't change anything
Like
Somehow I have been hiding out in the back of your mind
Maybe that's just my optimism
I was a pessimist
Before I met you
It's crazy to even think
That you could ever think of me
As more than what I've always been
But the clouds have cleared for me
And ******* the sky is bright
I can see everything that we could ever be
Right in front of my eyes
There is no need for sunsets
And rainbows
When there is so much beauty in what already is
See I've had a revelation
I have not found god
Or seen the light
But I see the light in you
And maybe someday
You'll be able to see the same one
In me.