I pushed you away
My words the current that grabbed you
Your footsteps the waves dragging you out to sea
You didn’t stop drifting.
My last cries out were lost in the roar of the ocean
Made up of all your tears
Spent on the lonely nights you were awake without me
I was just your anchor
And you were drowning in a sea of complicated masked misery
I stood on my solid shore
The familiar sand all I had ever known for years before you
And watched you sail away from me
On your broken raft of broken hope
It’d get you far enough away, at least
The moonlight on your back,
Your cheeks tearstained and puffy
You left this shipwrecked heart of mine
Almost swallowed whole
In the absence of the moon
When you crossed over the horizon
I kissed the image of your back goodbye
A soft, salty kiss
When you reached the horizon your strength finally broke
You slipped into the cold black water
But I’m no life guard

I couldn’t save you.