I used to stare at the clock,
a sad frown uncurled from the edges of my mouth,
I would fake happiness,
but when it would be true,
it was fleeting,
My friends disappear day by day,
'no one cares'
and 'I'm sorry'
were constant in my mind,
I hated myself,
and thought that I deserve nothing special,
and I have days were that pit of loneliness remains,
Of course it will never disappear,
they hurt me,
they're words are still smeared onto my heart,
the voices echoing through my mind,
Then why did I change?
I have people rooting for me now,
I found someone who understands me,
and wants me to smile when the past looms like a tower above me,
When I huddle in my corner to cower,
my friends lift me to my feet.
I finally found what I was searching for,
and change is helping me to smile again.