Where is the child Who has moved through thirty winters Since he watched his father Try to bowl a cricket ball And who, by careful coaching elsewhere Understood, that the action of his arm was wrong, Scribing through the child’s unblemished run Of seven faultless summers, a clumsy arc, Which sent the ball too wide, And called from restless slumber A spectre of uncertain shape and size.
Where is the child Who saw his father’s failure Force derision from each watcher’s eye And shared their scorn, yet was ashamed.
Where is the child Who learned too fast The legacy of adoration, And impotently sent imaginings From fevered nights to boil Each mocking eye in blood.
Where is the child Who felt confusion; anger, Then, the dormant seed of virulent contempt Germinate, strike root, grow, bud and bloom, Finding instantly, a fallow vein In which to flower for his father’s sake.
Where is the child? Where is the child now?
His desolation lives between these lines. His uncomprehending eyes plead from every word, At each full stop he mutely tries to speak.
Just once, his hand stretched from this page To touch my own.