If I describe to you this dream of mine, could I distill sorrow into drops of sweetness?
Let me write you one last story:
High summer, our heroes are apart but speeding together at 250 km/h (the average speed of the ICE 599 Berlin - Stuttgart)
Image the sweetest, deepest blue sky day of your life, how the warm bath of the air flows over your skin, and that is this day.
Her face is pressed against the train window. She wears a new blue dress that matches heaven, her hair is a halo of golden sunshine and everywhere she smells a field of honeysuckles.
Sheβs holding a scrap of paper on which the names of several German towns are written in pen (the stops where she will stand waiting on a platform looking west towards you) She is folding and refolding it in her lap.
And you, buying cheap train station coffee at a kiosk because you donβt want her to know that you barely slept last night. Willing the golden face of the clock in the lobby to speed faster towards noon.
You wait on the platform, hands in your pockets, contemplating another cigarette (your fifth or sixth) Wie Vorfruede!
An older man breaks custom and lightly asks if you have a Liebste arriving on this train. You smile that closed-mouth smile of yours and he nods then falls quiet to his own reveries.
She drums her fingers on her knees, unfolding the paper one last time, and asks the women beside her, wo sind wir?
The city comes into view, greengold trees, People walking along the river, old stone arches of the train station. Everything becomes very quiet; she steps down and looks left then right.
The train heaves a heavy sigh and rolls on, the breeze of its wake rushing first through her hair and then through yours.
Every desperate song and poem and cry in the night are filtered back to sweet water. The winter has never been and will never come back, the birds sing of you.
If everything that is dreamed or told of and never chosen exists in parallel shades set side by side, than in some world you and I are walking towards one another through the dappled summer light forever.