you need someone who will ask the serious questions. a mother insisting on dinner. a mother who doesn’t eat but smokes your father’s pipe as if the pipe itself has ended televised hunger. you need an idea. ballet shoes for jesus. a brother who doesn’t have to shower. that it be wholly mourned, you need to lose your mind. you need a motivational speaker who talks to a pair of female cops as they stand over the tastefully exposed body of a teenage boy. who tells them to go to a movie because it’s possible. even if they’ve never seen an invisible movie.