I'm so numb
I cant feel
I need to know if I'm still alive
But how there's only one way
and I cant go through that path again
I cant... I shouldn't... BUT I MUST!
I grabbed a blade dugged it into my poor lifeless skin
I started to feel
I feel the pain
I feel the blood dripping
and I hear it splashing to the floor
to the puddle by my feet
I feel alive I stopped for a second
But here comes the numbness and the lifeless me again
I needed more
I cut again a I ripped my skin apart inch by inch
I felt so alive like I'm not dead that I'm actually living