I awoke this morning without the taste of my lovers lips against mine, just the liquor from the night before and some cheep wine. I've been very forgetful this week, oh yes i have. About missed a job interview but that's nothing that really matters, maybe to you. I payed for a ******* cab that I couldn't afford/ and then listened to some ******* interview with other ******* people who weren't following their dreams/ and then I payed for sushi I couldn't afford and it was all just funny to me. So now I'm back in my apartment wondering what it takes to be. What it takes to be everything and anything. What it takes to be able to afford all the ******* that surrounds us/ then I ask myself, do I want this? What do I want. And I don't really know. All I know is a beer would really help wash down the thoughts of today as well as the sushi I just ate. So theres that.