blue scooters false pride blue house bus rides laughter, oh the laughter, the smell of your fragile body worn out fifty cents screams all of the whispering broken chair bullied blue faced baby boy brother memory covered in green paint yellow paint was it ****** was it ****** the end all be all last breath blanket shame faced who murderers what a way to go was it worth it star trek was it worth it are you happy yet did you do it boy scout noose knots after thoughts in the quiet streets one last prehistoric animal screech ambulance tires i was on the sidewalk laughing, laughing showing off did we care why am i sitting here broken chair broken boy pants down feet up how did they find you little brother step father mother swinging of you body cold and white kids who pushed you wearing ties cutting classes all the third grade boys looking up confused clenching souvenirs blank permission slips you genius where are you now insubordinate fool you would have been our boss you would have taken care of us where are you now?