I can right now
jump in front
of a car
and end my life
and I'll stop
existing
it'll take me
from getting
out of this house
to going out into
the busy street
to never exist again
and I'm ******* scared
I'm so ******* scared
because I don't know
what will be after
and I don't want
to be nothing
after I tried so hard
to be something


-k.s