Putting on an air of indifference,
Pretending not to care,
Withdrawing infinitely inward,
Running away from everyone/everything.

Failing to trust,
Finding solace in privacy,
Burning bridges faster than I can build,
Raising barriers day after day.

Over-analyzing, methodically,
Torturing myself for mistakes,
Disregarding successes,
Acknowledging only failures.

Blinking back the tears,
Feigning safety behind smiles and jokes,
Sleeping has escaped me,
Healing, a lost dream.