I don't know how to be in love. I honestly have no idea what love is supposed to look like. To me, love is a mother calling the police on a father when their daughter is 4. Love is grandparents never sleeping in the same bed anymore. Love is a 7 year old girl coming home to find her fathers things missing. Love is when he never comes back. Love is when none of them ever came back. Love isn't something magnificent or beautiful. Love is destructive. Love is terrifying and horrible. Love is to be avoided at all cost. Love is not something I know how to feel.