Maybe I am just once again resorting to my pathetic need to over think just to feel like anything real is happening. And then out of nowhere, when I finally feel at peace, I miss everybody. But somehow, the weather feels more sunny, and the water in this river keeping my mind watered is finally running, and flowing, and livestock is growing, my heart is showing, my heart is glowing. So why do I still feel so lonely? Maybe because I feel like my heart is empty.


This pain may not be escaping, and I may still be hurting, but that's okay, because at least I can see that some day, it will be ending. Even if it is not today, I will be set free. Forgive me, I'm usually much more encouraging, but until then, promise you won't leave. My heart may be empty, but the walls hold photos of beautiful memories. If I hurt so bad now, I guess it's just a friendly reminder that I am still breathing. She may not be next to me, but this hurt cuts deep and still remembers to visit me. So heartache, Thank you for still believing in me.

You're not a problem, you are my sanity. And I love you for it.