Oh god Why am I so shaky? Oh god Spilled a few more red dots on the floor. Oh god Better rinse the blade. Oh god I better Stop I mean Make them collide again. Oh god I should …..wait..... I should NOT tell my parents. Oh god I need HELP I mean yeah I am fine. I don't cry myself to sleep every night. Oh god This feels painful Wait no Amazing. Oh god thank you for making the cuts take the pictures away. Even for a minute. Oh god Let this feeling stay forever. And the suicidal thought stay back. So I can live in peace.