You told me not to shut down
When you left
Because I'd push my friends away
Sometimes I dont want friends anymore
I want silence
And closed doors
A safe harbour
Other people's feelings cloud my judgement
I can think up wonders
But not when in hiding
Hiding from them
I like shutting down
Shutting down is quiet
Shutting down is safe
because they can't get in
Shutting down is what I do
When I can't think my way out of things
Because of all the noise
The noise
The noise of other people
Feeling
It's so
Loud.