should the nature bend
when Im bent
under the expression of the days
when I knew love as a child
knew love like child

hidden beneath your hands of purity
hands that purified me
then emptied me of being a woman
and then filled me with knowledge
of love
and all those other things that come along with it

I remember years later
years
years
years
it dosent fit well into my comprehension
that the years have passed us by
and your kiss rings at my door bell
as if I knew who it was before I reached the door ****

and everything in you kills
it kills me
torture defying the law of gravity
in ways that heartless people shall know
what it is to have a heart

what it is to feel
to feel
as if you are being eaten alive by something
so much bigger than you
and your are condemed
and I am condemed

by something that is
so much
bigger than me'

and I let it swallow me
swallow me whole
into something that makes me feel split in half
in half beautifully

and I am condemed
and you are condemed
by something that is so much more

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beautiful than me