should I evaporate in between your hands
in between your mist
in between your palms
before I ever know what it is to really be
within you
I disintegrate at the thought
of the second time i ever felt your flesh
very close to mine
very close to mine

and still i blend with your moisture
and i inhale everything inside of you that is more
human than this

more human than this

I don't know whats real anymore
because my imagination stretches so far when
your name comes to mind and grounding myself is
never an option
when I see your face

I'm gone
I'm gone
when lost in thoughts of possibilities

possibilities of your blood and what flows within it
might be
I wander in vast landscapes on which i have no recognition
--
of life--
--

of me
--
of you

--

cause when inhabited in thought of your existence i no longer know meaning
nor do i know truth

closed eyes
hands clenched to my legs around and under my feet
under everything
and below everything

everything that I don't know
ebbs and fluid of things in my subconscious that might forever grow

who are you
who are you
and why do you possesses me in these ways
with my thoughts i speak with in the corner
why is it .. my emotions that you betray

me
me

its me
not you

and I fall
deep
I'm nothing more than what you think I am
or maybe I'm more
Or maybe I'm so much less

you have no comprehension and neither do I
if your stagnant stare is all I need to fall ablaze
so let it be that for now
you possess me and captured beneath a thousand layers is where
my heat goes

when my heat goes for you
and I'm am demanded by two

the one I am familiar with
and the one who had turned into a complete

taboo