i'm trying
isn't that all i can do?
isn't it all i have left,
the only breath that's slicing
heavily through my chest,
ripping through the chambers
of this empty hollowed heart,
can't you hear it beating? do you hear
the fireworks exploding, right
from the start? razor blades
gliding down my throat
embedded in my tongue
and i've never prayed so hard for
someone to be happy because your
smile is like the sun and oxygen and if
i don't see it, at least once a day, how am i
to survive? you were here and then
you weren't.
i've written it a thousand times, i'll write
it a thousand times more -
don't go.
don't forget me.
you are my biggest regret.
not because i said too much, but
because i never said
enough.