Here I am thinking of all the someones and somethings I hurt.
Tears sting my eyes and breathing in hurts.
Why is it that words hurt so much and phrases cut so deep?
Aren't they supposed to just
Disappear?

My mind is all a jumbled mess and my thoughts confuse me.
Noises that are not pleasant are coming from my stomach.
Shouldn't there be a manual to this thing we call life?
Why isn't there one?
PLEASE!

I decide that I will, again, hide my feelings and imbued them into my words.
With red tinged eyes and pale lips I sit down to write.
Was this really worth it, to sit here and put what's in my mind into words?
Aren't those the same things that just caused
Pain?

For right now, it seems that I don't give a ****.