(I remember the whips)
and the way out
filled with doubt and
violins in the distance

no way out there's no way
I'd get out alive
cars crashing and dishes breaking
are in the future
(but if that's what He wants let it be)
let it be
life is easy
life is hard
life is wrong
life is long
yet so short
everyday seems to never end until I realize I'm
back in bed with thoughts of
(her?)
you in my head
and there's no rain
or there is rain
but no peace

I have observed the multitude
******* each other (over)
"be grateful for what you have"
especially when you have nothing
take what you have and get what you want
until you realize what you want
isn't anything you want

it could have been easy but it
didn't have to be since
I'm more patient than anyone else has been
especially since the outcome is Nothing
so shove it to the side and let it
rust and rot

I can take what I need and feed
on the rest of them
the prey will pray the day away
just like I do

I need to forget about waves
and the yelling and the screaming
and the fighting and the end it all
thoughts that slowly penetrate the
walls of my room
so take me home with you one more and the only time
(the countdown has already started)
let me explore the depths
or throw me down in the streets
either could be the same
through the delusions and every time
I talk to myself
I remember why I was here in the first place

and every day I'm alive
I'm fighting to survive
walls and the ceilings
are falling down and the music gets louder
and louder and the colors are more vibrant
and I look over and everyone's moving
and I wonder why I got so confused in the first place and what I'm doing there
and then I try and try not to cry
(I need help, I'm sick)
just frozen in time
waiting and waiting and waiting

they all surround me and
I wish I could be someone else
since I walk faster or leave
and they leave
she leaves
you leave
until they're all gone
doing something else
it's a catastrophe
that the invisible bombs are falling down
in my mind

don't leave me hanging anymore
everything in life is so abrupt
I can't check out much longer
since I'm stuck here forever
as the music keeps playing and I'm just waiting
and waiting and waiting
for something more because life is easy and life
is hard and life is wrong and life is long
but it feels so short
for no reason

and when I calm down
I just wonder why I'm doing this in the first place
cross out everyone because it's
all my fault
I'm the worst person in the world
I wouldn't want to be around me either
can't escape the abruptness of the saving and the dating
because I'm just waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting
and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and-