I thought I was doing so well and lost so much weight and hell I felt pretty and I put on that dress that ugly blue dress and I thought I looked okay and was proud to look okay in that ugly blue sparkly dress, but then she took pictures and showed me the result and I nearly broke down crying at the horrific sight. Hiding my tears, I finally realized no amount of dolling up and no amount of weight loss is going to make me pretty. I'm ******* ugly and a nasty little swine a fat porker pig a mole on the earth's pretty face coal that can't become a diamond a face to make goblins laugh I'm ******* ugly and that's all I'll ever be.
my only motivation ever to be rich.. is so I can pay doctors in white coats to take out their tools and slash away my face- cut and carve and dice and shape and maybe make me okay to look at.