I will run rusted memories
Across taunt skin inside my head
And I'll say it wasn't so
I'll do this for you now
And I will not bleed again
I will leave you to yourself
As I believe in you again
That you could do better yet
Than someone like me
Who just can't decide on anything
You don't deserve to be put through this
You don't deserve to be put through me
So it'll hurt for the time being
But someone will decide on you
You should know that I'm yours
But I'd rather you not be mine
You deserve someone who's okay with you
Someone who's okay in time
I'd rather you never knew me at all
And that's a lie I'll treat myself to
As you try to soften the blow
I've already run myself through
Because the things that I've said
Are enough to make sunsets fade
You don't deserve to hear this
You don't deserve to hear my pain
And of course I'm hurting you
But you'll hurt less overall is my hope
I only hope you don't forgive me
And that you move on fast
If you could find my fears
A man I was afraid you'd want
Then take up your chances
And give him a shot
I'd rather you go down fighting
Than go down because of words
One day you'll be whole for sure
And I'll be alone as I've assured
You don't deserve to be near me
You don't deserve to be alone
I hope one day you find a room
That you and I are not inside at all