****** it up.
I’ve done it again
I went against what I said
I put myself first

You don’t deserve this
Nobody deserves this
I feel nothing desirable
You shouldn’t love me

For some crazy reason
You do still love me
I can’t figure out why
But I know that you do

You show it in everything
You give me pieces of you
That no one else will ever see

I was your wild card
Your crazy out there jump
You weren’t going to go for it
And I pushed and you did

Then I ****** it up
I went behind you
I didn’t think
I put me out there first

You had hurt me
But I hurt you more
It wasn’t intentional
Now its remorse

Why do I keep doing this
I always fall back
There’s no escape for me
It’s always a **** up

I’m good at those
I ruin every good thing
Like tornadoes in Oklahoma
There’s nothing but destruction in my wake

I feel sorry for the guys
The ones that deal with this
People I hurt
People that trusted me
I can’t keep doing this
It pains you and I know it

We’re never going to get back
It will never be normal
I ****** it all up
It’s going to never go away.

I’m sorry I loved you
I’m sorry you trusted me
Take a hint, it doesn’t get better
It will only get worse

It’s just how I am
That’s all there is to it
I’m good at ******* it up
******* people over

I loathe that I do it
But it’s just how I am
Leave while you can
Before I **** us over worse