Self-loathing gets old
With years
Where can you go?
Bad habits are hard to break
It's too long to wait
To let them break you

Too many years afraid of the light
Dragging down darkness
To bask in the night

In blood, in haste the deal it was sealed
With terms and conditions that won't be revealed
With blessings and curses, this black covenant
Don't know what you've bought 'till your money's all spent
When all that you've bartered has lost all it's worth
To bury with loved ones, deep in the earth
Deep in the ground, down deep in the dirt
Where light never shines and pain never hurts
How many years did you sign up for?
If you knew what you know now would you sign up for more?

You don't need my advice
It's loaded, comes at a price

How does a man arrive at this place
Outside the universal circle of grace?