I disbelieved at first, Remembering your pianist fingers dragging through my hair. Remembering My hand in yours, you turning it over, marveling at the smallness. Yet in the truest corner of my thoughts I knew my time was running out; you had said you loved her, Somewhere unrecorded, hopefully.
So this death dirge soft shrill in my ears - this nagging unconsciousness, This plodding inevitability, reached its crescendo and bellowed. Discontent to pass quietly, it trumpeted like a drunken elephant, The Third World clash of car horns and splitting concrete, Constant and irredeemable.
Hughes swallowed Plath like a pike. No one In your charade did such a thing, ever managed to Consume the other. Still, it was a dance of Damnation, spiraling around your loose definitions, Waiting with bated breath for someone to fall into mediocrity. The Slave can never rule the master. Remembering You on your knees before her, begging for a sip of Non-alcoholic beer - I wanted to ***** so badly, From jealousy, from lust, from sheer disgust. I was a slave Worshiping a slave. In that moment, we were finally near-equals. I hated us both.
It hurt. You dabbed distilled water Onto the cuts you accidentally created, standing up to Defend me from prying friends and awkward moments, but never From yourself. Not that I needed to be. The ache from the unit of you Was exquisite. I was so distracted by the burn - So used to lying in cliched darkness, so refreshed to be slain daily by resurrection - That I failed to hear the first drums of funeral march renew.