I’m crawling in my sins
Slowly drowning
I’m beginning to welcome death
I can’t hold my head up high
Otherwise you will see the shame
Written all over my face
I used to stand up so tall and proud

I thought I knew right from wrong
Good from bad
But nothing is ever black and white
They blend together
Mixing until you can’t tell where one ends
And the other begins.

I have my regrets
I can’t change what I’ve done
Karma is waiting for me
Waiting patiently
Waiting to steal my happiness
Waiting until I’m too weak.
When the time comes, she will lash out
Marring my skin and soul alike
Bleeding out leaving me completely empty.

I can’t change the cards I have been dealt
I never meant to hurt anyone and I am sorry for the pain I have caused.

I’m so close to taking my last breath
My sins are smothering me
I can’t crawl any further
Karma is right in front of me
Her smile so beautiful
Full of promises
Her eyes tell stories of my ending
Brightening with each struggle of breath
My time is up.

I’m not alone
I embrace what I’ve done
Kissing my sins and regrets
Because when she is done with me
I can start anew and smile once again.