Those tears I hold,
  They've made me grow old
      All those whispered thoughts I've yelled into the mirror. All those hidden scars, some how they can't be tamed
   Settled down in the corner crying feeling ashamed. I live in an abyss of light... Crazy to think I'm alright. I've lost my sight and being okay I might...
But I've got something to say to that sweet boy If I may! I'm sorry I was the reason you no longer smile and I'm sorry I'm the reason you can no longer love. But what life has put up in front of me dug my grave long before we met! Do you remember that first day where smiled at me and said hey... I genuinely thought your smile was invincible so full of happiness and the way your eyes glowed it's like you were an angel on earth and your voice was so kind and delicate. You were a clown who joked around; I wish I knew how much you'd eventually mean to me! But I was too afraid to let my heart love but you weren't you loved me! You even loved all my flaws. The way your eyes sparkled at my sight made me insecure and the way you caved down at me made my heart melt. But something so great stood between us. A man I call my father and the god I no longer believed in! The torture and the abuse, the injustice and cruelity that I still face today... What kills me is that you saw a light in me no one else did. But what drowns me is the fact the I shut you down completely now you walk around like a dead man. Your eyes don't glow and your smile is fake what kind of monster am I? Oh that's right I'm Satan's angel and your devil. Forgive me will you sweet boy I wish I can go back in time and change everything