to say what i’ve never had the courage to say.
to act exactly how i feel rather than attempt to hide them in some incoherent display.

these are things i’ve come to learn.

i’ve never felt more vulnerable but at the same time, i’ve never felt so safe.
safe in your eyes and warm in your heart.

it’s hard to shake these cavalier practices of mine.
your voice is what soothes my aching heart.
seeing you stand there is what stirs it.

hearing you in the room next door keeps me in anticipation.

all the romantic things i’ve ever said to you seem funny to me now.  even when stringed together into one loving sentence, one paragraph, one story.

they’re not enough to describe my affection for you.

all words become superfluous in my attempt to describe the feelings that strike through me.
a swirl of love, hope, fear, and pain.

i retreat only to the sounds that flow through my ears.
songs that play in a melancholic tone.

songs that when i listen to long enough become your voice.