There is a weight on my shoulders
It lays there crushing me
Taking my breath
Stealing my strength
I fight it and sometimes I win
I fight it and sometimes I lose
I fight it but it no matter if I win no matter if I lose
It stays there crushing me
Forcing me to think and worry
It only makes the weight that much heavier
Thoughts of the future
Thoughts of my little broken family
Thoughts of failure drown me
Choking me
Thoughts of escape so easy
Seem more like failure than of freedom
I ignore it and smile and nod
I laugh and grin
I pretend the weight isn’t there
But I can’t ignore it for long
The weight just keeps growing
Heavier and Heavier
Stealing my breath
Taking my strength
Crushing me