I am carrying her world on my shoulders
I am taking care of her and her and her alone
and worrying that I am not doing enough
Worrying that I will not be able to catch her when she falls
Or show her the path
Or carry her when she is hurt
I know I have to let her go let her learn but I can’t
I know it is my fault that she hasn't learned from her mistakes
I know that she doesn't understand that she must stand on her own
One day I will not be there
And that thought alone sends me into a panic
It breaks me at times and I beg her to understand
I beg her to stand on her own
but she will not listen
And the terror grips me in its tight choking grasp
I NEED her to be strong
I NEED her to be able to fight
I NEED her to stand without me
But she is in a cage of my own making
And even if I leave the cage unlocked and the door wide open
She will not leave
She will not fly
She refuses to stand
because I have taught her
That I will catcher her when she falls
Carry her when she is hurt
I will show her the way
But what if I am not there?
What if I am not there?
Who will carry her world if I can not?