i wonder what it feels like
to not have the entire weight of the world of your shoulders
to not have
every
single
piece of you
poked

i wonder how it feels like
to be happy
to actually be happy
not those fake smiles or forced laughter

i wonder how it feels
to not pick up your broken pieces
to not hurt yourself when a shard
of your broken heart pierce through
your
skin

i wonder how to feels like
to be called
beautiful
or
pretty
or amazing

i wonder how it feels
to have
your parents
tell you
I AM PROUD OF YOU

i wonder how it feels like to be
whole
when everyone around you
is
f a l l i n g  a p a r t

i actually wonder what it feels like

- a.l.