"if I killed myself tonight, the stars would
still appear, the sun would still come
out, the earth would still rote, the
seasons would still change.. so why not?"

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want to know "why not"?
how about the way your bestfriends older sister will throw up by the sidewalk
of the road because shes crying so hard
how about the way your bestfriend will sob for weeks in her showers, in
her bedroom, in the bathroom at school
how about the way your mother will cry every time she looks at herself in the mirror and pictures herself bringing you home
how about the way your fathers eyes will NEVER stop mirroring the
image of your hanging body
how about the way your boyfriend will sit in his room in silence, unable to
eat or sleep, or even ******* shower because why would he want to
continue with out you?
how about the way the girl who called you sister and will start crying every
time she sees your parents?
how about the way your family will sit in your house after the funeral
looking blankly at one another because god knows they cant find a
******* thing to say that doesnt just float through the air where you
should be walking
how about they way your sister will wake up every morning and see you
door and convince herself that you could still be there, just sleeping in
your bed
how about the way your exboyfriend will come over and pull your clothes
from the drawers and cry while he holds them desperately to his face to
breathe in whats left of you

dont you dare tell me it wont change things
there may be starts in the sky and wind in the air and sun in the clouds
but without you, we dont want them