I saw the in-between of monday and tuesday and it frowned at me for trespassing. I was in the ocean though I did not swim, I caught the tide on my lips and I waited there for it to one day drag you in again with the pebbles. except you never came to visit the sea again, I know because I waited and at 2pm, in protest and in sadness I drowned a boy, to prove I was powerful, too. I put myself in the clouds but you did not look up and so I made it rain. and then I watched as your hair got wet and suddenly I was very sad that the only way I could touch you was from so far away and you did not want me there. and then I put myself in your garden, and I tried to grow but I was strange, I was pale, and I was dark and so I turned into nettles and I hurt you every time we touched. so I saw the meadows you stayed in when you were a child and I copied them to give you a sense of comfort a motherβs fore-head kiss I let my nettles die and I was a daisy nearby and I danced to get your attention, to prove to you that daisies could grow where nettles did too. but you did not pick me I was a tiny flower and my colours were not bright enough I was not a meadow; I was not a mother; I was only a metaphor in a book you didnβt want to read. and so I admired the things you did want: sugar in your coffee white bread and sleep. and the shoulder which carried a flick of your hair. made me angry like the curve of your spine; I could not own it like I had owned the ocean and I had owned the sky and I had owned nature and it tortured me to know that with everything I had become it was not enough to put my hand on your stomach and to tell you I love you. the sky could not talk, I could not move as a daisy, I hurt relentlessly and one day when I watched your eyelids as you were sleeping it occurred to me that it was often the case that beauty was not to be touched, or to be owned and so I left. and quietly, calmly without saying a word, without owning anything I loved you in silence. still do.