In the first seconds of morning,
My eyes flutter open to connect with yours.
My smile mirrored on your face.
My body comfortable in the cocoon of your arms.
Everything that happened last night is forgotten,
Forgiven,
Healed.
In the next couple of seconds,
Everything comes back
But you're smiling at me
And I am torn.
Not sure whether
to slap you
or
to kiss you.
Either one means feelings
Either one means that I care
I won't give you that satisfaction
So instead I'll open up
Let you in
Let you please me
Meaninglessly.