I hear them talk about me. ****. This wasn't my first rendez-vous on the rumor mill. Because boys and alcohol make a problematic equation especially when you add booming music and dancing. I've made the same mistakes before with lips and backrooms. But I know better, I tell myself. I knew better than to kiss necks on dance floors. But I fell for it, I fell for the liquor in my veins, for the music thrusting in my ears and other places too... I've done this all before with the same "what the ****" on my tongue and regret in my eyes.
I hear them talk about me: The girl who can't control herself, her urges. ****. Maybe if we locked the door, I wouldn't have to walk around avoiding eye contact with everyone wondering whether or not they saw me and which half they saw. I knew better but, it's simple math boys plus alcohol plus me equals what keeps the rumor mills alive.