i used to marvel
at the palpable love
between two souls
who were rooted
in each other
but that wonder
has been replaced
by sickness
**** it all
i will say it here and now
for myself and all
those who cannot
admit it themselves
i am deeply ill
and nothing short
of salvation can mend
my shattered spirit
i am adrift in open water
waiting for you to
throw the life preserver
but i know you have
already promised
redemption for another
so it is here i will float
until my body cannot
take the beating from
the waves any longer
or until the cold
saps all my strength
and i sink mercilessly
into the jaws of the deep
having the ocean
eat my bones
sounds better than
leaving them
to be worn slowly away
by hope