The time is passing and it still feels like the first day .
The pain and the disbelief in knowing I could never see you ever again.
That I would never see your smile light up a room.
Your joy lighten the mood.
The littlest things are embedded in my heart.
When you said forever.
You accepted all the change.
You embraced the time together.
I embrace the memories now.
Because all that I have is your memory.
It's always a struggle to remind myself.
I can't call you.
I can't text you.
I can't see you.
If I could only dream of you tonight.
Just to see you if at least in my sleep.
If I could only hold you my friend.
Tell you how much exactly you mean to me.
How well we understood each other.
And the most important part of our friendship,
That was never spoken.
How much I wish I could go back and tell you.
You took a piece of my heart with you.
The days I see your face in a crowd are the hardest.
Those days for a second I think of reaching for my phone.
Those days I wish it was you.
I wish I could run up and hold you and realize I've been asleep.
But I'm falling asleep as I wish I could.
When I wake up,
it is that my heart sinks lower than before.